Satan Lamb

I’m kind of immature and unfollowed someone who unfollowed me on instagram Hahahaha. But seriously, I post decent shit!

Lisa and Ashley:

Thank you, gorgeous ladies.

I guess we all get a little hard on ourselves sometimes.

…. (that’s what he said)

All I want is a hobby to commit my time to.

And to have band practice every day.

And to be skinny so I’m not disgusted with myself deep down. I wish I could be fat and happy, but I hate myself for being fat and binge eating and lethargic.

I’m going to go to the gym before I lay here all night and give myself another reason to hate myself.

Currently hahah

This is a tumblr exclusive. I took a cutesy pose pic of us in bed in our hotel room, but this is what I’m really chillin like. Plus I thought our hands were cute, and even my belly. Haha

On my drive home yesterday, I saw what looked like my coworker’s car, and I started kind of watching the driver from two cars behind.

If this was a cute dude, or a cool chick, I would have avoided them at all costs, but I guess, feeling dominant or “cooler” than this particular person, I automatically felt comfortable watching them drive home.

And thats when I realized I am a creep. Hahaha

My hoochie rap star lyrics:

“I’m a woman, baby,
Cum is my success!”

I just woke up from a nightmare where I looked my mother in the face as she died. I was screaming.

She was doing something to help my friend’s mother prepare for a party, because I asked her to, and I was nagging and taunting her about not doing it right, or being weird with people.

I looked her in the face and it was bloated and red and scary and she looked me in the eyes but they rolled to the side and she was smiling at me, super eerily.

I’m gonna start being nice to her. I guess that was a gentle reminder that holding grudges will not hurt just her but me as well. I don’t want to lose her, as much as I pretend not to want her in my life. She’s made so many mistakes, but she’s trying. In my dream she was trying for me, and I just ridiculed her, and she died doing something to prove herself to me. Just the most fucking horrid feeling.

Having dirty thoughts about Leo in Inception.

They all want the spot you seek
They all try to talk down your dreams
They smile now but trade words behind scenes
They never say what they really mean